Sometimes while reading a poem, a stanza or even a line may resurrect memories long forgotten or at least not recalled in many years. This is what happened yesterday when I read Robert Hayden's "Those Winter Sundays." According to the brief bio note with the poem, Hayden was born in Detroit. I was born and raised in Chicago, so my winter mornings were much like Hayden's in Detroit.
Those Winter Sundays
Sundays too my father got up early
and put his clothes on in the blueblack cold,
then with cracked hands that ached
from labor in the weekday weather made
banked fires blaze. No one ever thanked him.
I'd wake and hear the cold splintering breaking.
When the rooms were warm, he'd call,
and slowly I would rise and dress,
fearing the chronic angers of that house.
Speaking indifferently to him,
who had driven out the cold
and polished my good shoes as well.
What did I know, what did I know
of love's austere and lonely offices?
I remember my dad getting up in those cold, dark winter mornings and going down into the basement to remove the cinders and shovel coal into the furnace. I too never said anything about it for I just took it as a part of living and never considered what it meant, until I read this poem. Hayden says so little, yet suggests so much in this brief poem.
"No one ever thanked him."
"fearing the chronic angers of that house."
"Speaking indifferently to him,"
And of course, the last two lines:
"What did I know, what did I know
of love's austere and lonely offices?"
How much regret, how much regret is contained within those fourteen words?